I ask because whenever I'm feeling this way I use "disillusioned" but I realize now that's not really the feeling
the context for the word or phrase is for in-general, eg, "I feel [word or phrase] with [everything or particular-thing]"
the answer should not include "disillusion" because that word implies an illusion has dropped away, and I'm looking for, eg, when we don't even know what's real anymore
a phrase is acceptable
Final important note: I acknowledge the words confused, bewildered, uncertain and their synonyms but they still fall short: what I'm also looking for would describe how this world is purposefully making us feel this way