I've been reading some text from Winnicott and Ogden about "The Fear of Breakdown" and the unlived life.
Ogden, T. H. (2016) wrote this about Winnicott's previous work in Reclaiming unlived life: experiences in psychoanalysis;
So, the past event that occurred, but was not experienced, continues to torment the patient until it is lived in the present (with the mother/analyst). And yet, despite the beauty of Winnicott’s response to the question he poses, I find his answer incomplete. It seems to me that a principal, if not the principal motivation for an individual who has not experienced important parts of what happened in his early life is the urgent need to lay claim to those lost parts of himself, to finally complete himself by encompassing within him-self as much of his unlived (unexperienced) life as he is able. I read this as a universal need – the need on the part of every person to re-claim, or claim for the first time, what he has lost of himself and, in so doing, take the opportunity to become the person he still holds the potential to be. One does so despite the fact that attempting to realize that potential to become more fully oneself involves experiencing the pain (of breakdown and the primitive agony that results from breakdown), which had been too much to bear in infancy and childhood and has led to the loss of important aspects of self
My question is, does this mean the person actually unconciously wants to repeat the feeling they had during the childhood trauma?