I'm 13 years old, and a girl.
Ever since I had persisted in a small sin, I started to realised that I may have committed a major sin! I became so worried, I started to cry, I panicked and I desperately spoke to Allah and I promised him that one day I would learn how to pray and perform tabwah. I felt like Allah wouldn't be there to forgive me and I felt so disgusted in myself. I sincerely regret my actions.
I soon learnt that Allah would forgive all sins and my faith was restored and I felt confident again. I then decided to research the major sins and I learnt about 'Shirk'. When I understood what it meant, I started thinking horrible things such as 'I worship another god along with Allah' but i didn't really mean it. I thought to myself that if I really committed shirk I would've put my heart and soul into worshipping the other god and I always reminded myself that it is only Allah that I worship, and nobody else.
When I started to think this, I became so worried, I panicked once again and researched if Allah would forgive Shirk. A few said that they wouldn't forgive Shirk unless they repented. I heard that Allah forgives ALL sins, and some said Allah wouldn't forgive Shirk.
Please answer my question as I do not want to suffer in stress any longer. I'm crying as I am writing this please, please, please! I do not want to go to hell and I fear greatly of it!! :(